Lets Talk 'Blood Pressure'.
So i have to admit,
i am very emotional.
I am a perfectionist,
i tend to doubt a lot of things
hence im a huge thinker
and i worry. ALOT.
Which comes to today's topic,
that ive known since last month
and it took 3 doctors to tell me
that something is seriously wrong
with my health.
I have an extremely high blood pressure.
Initially i thought it was the food intake,
so ive gone rather healthy and exercising,
and im happy to say ive dropped
2kgs in 1 and a half weeks.
But that wasnt the source.
Doctor tells me,
"You may think you're not stressed
but people tend to train themselves
to handle stress but by right,
their body actually cant."
She continued with a deep frown on her forehead,
"You better do something about this
or you'll have a heart failure before 40."
Cant beat that line by giving you even MORE stress. -_- haha
And i think by dealing with this,
is to actually finding out the source,
so I am stress because...
... of our finances.
... of our wedding venue and will the guests be happy?
... of our pre-wedding shoot.
... on how im gonna ship a huge gown to Melbourne.
... on how expensive these make-up artists are charging me.
... on how ive decided to do my own makeup and now i need youtube tutorials.
... of our honeymoon plans.
... of work.
... of having children.
... of my exam results that will be out in 2 more days.
... of my lack of discipline for my studies for my next paper in May.
... of not earning enough.
... of not saving enough.
... of losing weight.
... of constantly feeling fat.
... of constantly craving for cheese, which ive strictly stayed away from.
... of constantly having to split my time with my in-laws and my own family on weekends.
... of my father-in-law's results tomorrow if he has to do surgery.
... of his work.
... of our bills.
... of because of the stress, my eczema is breaking out.
... of aging.
... of my puppy having ticks.
... of deciding on saving money and time, by cleaning the condo myself.
... of cleaning about the condo. -_-
... of the constant car problems.
... of my missing touch-and-go card.
... on living so far away from our parents.
I think i could go on forever
with my list but i should also now
focus more on what i should do
to reduce it.
And i think i definitely need more sleep.
Ah. Maybe a spa might help.
Yeah. I'll do that tomorrow.